You know when you like someone and then they stop talking to you and you finally accept the fact that you’re not speaking anymore, but then they talk to you again so you’re like, “wait, wtf…” *eyes squinting* So you’re sitting there, confused. And you don’t really know how to feel about this. Are you a second option? Or you just haven’t made it clear enough that you like him so he didn’t really think it was a big deal to stop talking for a while? Or maybe he changed his mind? You sit there and stare at your phone, at his text wondering how you’re supposed to reply. And then you start to become defensive and think, “uh uh, you can’t just come back and think it was okay to not talk to me…” So you ignore the text for about five minutes maybe less. Less actually. Because you realize you still really like him. So you tell yourself to suck it up. You decide to test it, but with one foot left behind because you’re not sure and you’re scared to get disappointed. So what is it gonna be?
I don’t want someone who thinks I’m perfect. I want someone who knows that I’m not, but loves me anyway. Just someone who knows my freckles exist under this thick foundation, but still tells me not to wear make up because he thinks I look better with them visible. Like someone who knows why I am so picky with choosing or shopping for bathing suit, because my stretch marks exist but tells me that I should choose whatever I like and not be ashamed of my own skin. And someone who knows that I have insecurities, that I doubt myself, I question my worth and get jealous. I want someone who knows my mood swings are unbelievable at times but still sits there and let me vent about random things, and just give me a huge bear hug after. Someone who doesn’t pretend I’m perfect because I know I’m not. I just want someone who embraces me for who I am and to show me that I can feel loved and feel comfortable under my own skin.
When someone could show you heaven, that same person can also show you hell. Don’t be naive and think otherwise. Don’t be one sided. Don’t be biased. Don’t deprive yourself of the ugly truth. Save yourself from the pain and time feeling bitter later on. In general, it’s always good to remember this little simple fact. Just like when someone earns your trust, they’re also capable of breaking it in less than a second like it was nothing. And I know what you’re thinking. Nobody likes to walk around with this little Debbie downer phrase but it’s really worth it. The sooner you accept this, the better for you. It’s simply accepting the fact that anyone who is capable of putting a smile on your face has a power to turn it upside down. Consider it normal.
Guess what! I’m still blonde!
I am usually undecisive. I go blonde one day and then a week later, I start missing my black hair. But for some weird reason, I’m still in love with this color and thinking of keeping it for a long time.
You are beautiful no matter what they say. Don’t let them tell you you can’t wear white jeans, and don’t let them tell you you shouldn’t wear a dress. Your nose is not crooked, and your lips are fine. You don’t need breast implants or liposuction. No, you’re not too curvy. No, you’re not too fat. The dress looks perfectly fine and no, your legs are not too big for the dress. No, the dress is not too short for you. Don’t listen to them when they say you look awkward, you look great. Wear anything you want. Stop letting them tell you what to wear. Yes, you can be confident in your own skin and yes, you look nothing like the girl on the magazine, but yes, you are beautiful.
One thing I learned growing up, and that is that life is full of surprises. You wish and hope for one thing, sometimes you get it, sometimes not. When you don’t happen to get it, somehow something better always comes to place. So I learned to let things go. I learned to let things work and fall into their right places. It’s hard to be patient and it’s hard to just sit back and watch things work their own magic, but sometimes it’s the best thing to do. The earlier you realize that there are some things that you just can’t control, the better for you. Less stress and weight on your shoulders and the happier you are.