One day, I hope you look back at what we had, and regret every single thing you did to let it end. When you chose to look at the “neighbor’s grass”, and always said it was greener. Instead of taking care of what you have, you drooled over what you did not. I hope you regret choosing to be around people who you think is cool, rather than staying with the one who would wait for you when you come home, always leaving the lights on for you. You had it all, you just did not realize it. I hope you regret putting me right at the bottom of your every list. I hope you realize that you lost someone who you could come home to after an exhausting day. I hope you regret leaving me out in the open knowing I trusted you with my emotions and my heart. I hope one you regret everything. And when you realize that you have made a mistake, it will be too late.
It’s not hard to impress a girl who adores you. Your presence alone is probably the best gift you can give her. You have to realize that she looks forward to seeing you everyday and wishes she could be with you all the time. A girl who adores you will not care about fancy things because she will care more about the effort. She will not pressure you to do anything you do not like. She will understand and appreciate. She will be selfless. She will not take you away from your friends. She will trust you. Of course though, you would have to treasure that if you want to keep it that way. Girls are like genies. You have to rub them the right way or else they’ll act or turn into something almost unbelievable. They do things because they follow what they feel. Don’t plant anything but good thoughts in their minds because their gut feelings are powerful. They almost don’t have a cap when it comes to emotions. They feel too much.
How long until the day you get over him? The moment you decide to. That could be ten years from now when you finally get tired of hoping. Or that could be in the next ten seconds. It’s really all about you. Nobody else. It’s you who control your own mind and what can go in it. It’s you who control and decide what you think about every second of the day. So you ask, when? The real question is when do you want to get over him? When you finally say and decide enough. When you finally tell yourself you need to get on something else or you’ll spend your life crying about someone. That will be the day of the beginning of you getting over someone. Time is not going to heal you unless you let it. That means you have to decide when.
I understand that you just want to be loved. Trust me, I have read and heard you talk about it enough. But that doesn’t justify why you should let someone walk all over you. You are not being loved. You are being taken advantage of. You are being taken for granted. You like to think you are being loved because that’s what you have been looking for. Hey, wake up. You are only fooling yourself. If you want to be loved, accept what’s infront of you. How do you expect to be loved by the right one, when you’re the one stopping it from happening? Don’t be a doormat. The right person who is meant to love you will not walk all over you. He or she will not let anyone walk all over you. He or she will be there to defend your honor whether you are present or not. The right one will respect you. It’s better to let someone walk away from you than walk all over you.
Why are you worried about getting noticed more than you should be craving for respect? Generally speaking, I sometimes feel like the world is starting to flip upside down. You’re showing a perfectly opposite example of what you should be showing the future generation. How is it going to be? One day, respect will be something no one will even recognize. Isn’t that scary and sickening? You’re so desperate about getting attention to the point where you forget you’re even a person. A human that should be respected. Not a thing, not a piece of meat that men can hump and leave when they’re done. Not someone people will use. You’re not a walking circus. Stop acting like one.
Give yourself a break. Give yourself compliments. Give yourself credit. Give yourself time. Give yourself attention. Give yourself love. Give yourself power. He’ll let yourself be free. Get yourself ice cream. A whole tub of it! Tell yourself what you want to hear. You don’t need to wait in anyone to do that for you. Let yourself enjoy your passion without worrying about other people liking it or not. Without worrying about people calling you a weirdo. Be a weirdo. Be an awesome weirdo. Give yourself opportunities. Give yourself everything that you want. Give yourself to you.