THIS IS JUST A START

You think you’re okay until you wake up at 3 in the morning sobbing your heart out remembering everything that you once had but now so out of your reach. It’s okay. Cry it all out. Cry until you run out of tears. Cry as loud as you need to. Hit a pillow. Cry to a pillow. Burry your face in it. Scream. Stay up if you need to. Cry it all out. Don’t go back to sleep until you feel a tad bit better. Cry until your eyes hurt, until they’re red, until they’re swollen. After all, you need it. Let all your emotions out. You deserve it. Don’t keep it all in. You don’t want those to stay in your heart. The moment you close your eyes and fall deep into sleep, you will have the best sleep of your life. You will wake up, maybe not close to happy, but you’ll wake up with heavy eyes and you’ll wake up hungry. You will want to eat and please do something for yourself. Run. Jog. Walk. Ride a bike. This is just a start. 

BE A SPARK OF LIGHT

In a world that screams consumerism and selfishness, what are you doing to be a spark of light? Be organic and be honest. Do things out of love and do things simply because you love doing it. Do things without thinking or worrying about who you will attract or if you’ll attract any. Do things out of kindness. Do things to benefit yourself mentally and spiritually. The world is full of people who are indifferent. We need more people like you. Sincere. Be happy and do more good things for others just to make yourself feel good. There’s nothing wrong with that. Do things without expecting anything in return. Do it just because. Do it because you can. Be a person who will be remembered for doing good deeds and spreading nothing less than happiness. Be remembered for your sincerity and kindness. Smile at the bitter ones even when they are unkind. 

A REAL HEART BREAK

You haven’t experienced a real heart break until it makes you not want to eat anymore. Because everytime you try to, you feel sick to your stomach and it makes you want to just throw it all back up. It doesn’t matter how hungry you are, it just seems like your body is rejecting anything and everything. You haven’t experienced a real heart break it until you decide to give yourself a pep talk that you’re going to try to have a decent day. Tell yourself to think of happy thoughts. Your childhood. But then when you try to roll over and get out of bed, you just couldn’t. Your feet just feels numb and then you want to cry, your eyes begin to throb and feel warm when you try to close it, it’s because you’ve cried so much you feel like you’ve literally ran out of tears. You haven’t experienced a real heart break until you see something that reminds you of the person you love and your chest start to hurt, physically. And it seems as though you cannot breathe and it starts to feel heavy, like an elephant is sitting on your chest. 

PEOPLE CHANGE WHEN THEY GET HURT 

Some people change when they get hurt. Not because they’re weak but because they were brave to love without restraints. They were brave because they took a huge risk. Probably even knowing that love is not always a happy ending. They change but then sooner or later they’ll grow out of it. In a good way of course. They will learn and sadly, some people with a brave heart like them, decide to love differently in the future, or at least they will try. Because they will know how much it hurts. But then again that’s not something they can control. That’s not something anybody can control. Because when the heart decides to love, forget logic. The heart and emotions somehow always wins. 

THOUGHTS: YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL NO MATTER WHAT THEY SAY

You are beautiful no matter what they say. Don’t let them tell you you can’t wear white jeans, and don’t let them tell you you shouldn’t wear a dress. Your nose is not crooked, and your lips are fine. You don’t need breast implants or liposuction. No, you’re not too curvy. No, you’re not too fat. The dress looks perfectly fine and no, your legs are not too big for the dress. No, the dress is not too short for you. Don’t listen to them when they say you look awkward, you look great. Wear anything you want. Stop letting them tell you what to wear. Yes, you can be confident in your own skin and yes, you look nothing like the girl on the magazine, but yes, you are beautiful. 

THOUGHTS: TRUST THE PROCESS

You may love the wrong person, cry for the wrong reasons, but one thing is for sure, mistakes help us to find the right person. Take every experience as a lesson and always try to look at the good side. If things did not work out the way you thought they were, cry it out or do whatever you need to do. Just don’t forget that it’s not the end of the world. Someone out there is looking for somebody like you. They’re probably making the same mistakes too. Crying for the wrong reasons as well and currently loving someone who will eventually make them realize they aren’t meant for each other. Because you aren’t them. Mistakes will bring you two together. Just trust the process.