I’m a savage in a different way. I don’t pretend not to care about people. In fact, I care until I can’t. I try atleast. I try until it fails. And if it does, it will only make me a better person. I don’t try to act like someone I’m not, nor do I pretend to like something I don’t. I don’t dress the way society tells me to. Why should I? That’s a common mistake most of you make. You try to fit in. So eventually all of you will start to look, feel and act the same. Eventually being different is something we don’t see often. Eventually it becomes easier to take everyone for granted. But can you blame them?
” When the flower doesn’t bloom, you fix the environment in which it grows, not the flower. ”
I couldn’t agree with this quote more. If you’re in a relationship and you’re going through tough times with your other half, I know it can be hard to see through the arguments and emotions you are currently dealing with. Feeling like your other half is unhappy? I’m sure everybody have experienced that before. We feel like we aren’t doing enough to make our other halves happy. We start questioning ourselves if it’s us and it can get very complicated and confusing. Then some start to assume things which is a huge no no. Basically everything around us can impact how we see and think of things and I say this because it’s true. We forget to look at what’s important. If you want a relationship to last first of all, you have to be selfless. And not only look at your other half and you. You also have to look at the situation or whatever it is that is surrounding both of you. This would be the perfect time to reflect on some things. Important things. Reflect on what you have been contributing to the relationship. Reflect on what you have done to nourish your relationship. Those are the important things we need to keep in mind.
“Queens do not compete with hoes. ”
You don’t. Because you have standards. You don’t, because you know you are worth everything. More than a hallway of diamonds. You don’t compete, because you know you are to be pursued. You don’t compete because you know competing would put you on the same level as those who are desperate for attention. You don’t compete because your life doesn’t consist only about one person, you have a kingdom to run. You don’t compete with hoes because you know you have nothing to lose. You do not sweat over people who do not see your worth because you don’t need that kind of approval from others. You are a queen, you do not compete with hoes because you are self secured and nothing can make you feel anything less.
I don’t want someone who thinks I’m perfect. I want someone who knows that I’m not, but loves me anyway. Just someone who knows my freckles exist under this thick foundation, but still tells me not to wear make up because he thinks I look better with them visible. Like someone who knows why I am so picky with choosing or shopping for bathing suit, because my stretch marks exist but tells me that I should choose whatever I like and not be ashamed of my own skin. And someone who knows that I have insecurities, that I doubt myself, I question my worth and get jealous. I want someone who knows my mood swings are unbelievable at times but still sits there and let me vent about random things, and just give me a huge bear hug after. Someone who doesn’t pretend I’m perfect because I know I’m not. I just want someone who embraces me for who I am and to show me that I can feel loved and feel comfortable under my own skin.
How amazing is it to find someone who wants to hear about all the things that go on in your head. Whether if it is good or bad. How amazing is it to find someone who would not let you go to sleep with negative thoughts running through your mind. I wish for everyone to find that special person and never take them for granted. I believe we all deserve to have someone who cares to listen when we have the best days and especially when we have the worst. The world is cruel and most people spend most of their lives putting a front, look tough and make sure they protect their sensitive selves from anyone. Something I can’t blame people for doing nowadays. But it’s amazing to be able to come home to that someone who simply cares. Who wants to empty your cup and make sure you’re ready to face the world the next morning.
I know you post statuses or tweet things not because you want likes, but because you’re hoping for one person to read it. Hoping your feelings matter to him. I know you sit there and do that because you’re afraid of rejection. So you tweet. You post statuses. But ask yourself this, until when are you going to do that? Until when are you going to hope for him to notice you exist? How long are you planning to sit there and wait? Prince coming over in the middle of the night to throw pebbles at your bedroom window, taking you away so you two can live happily ever after sometimes only exist in fantasies. Fairy tales. Sometimes you have to grow some balls to let your feelings be known. Because if not, you will spend and more likely waste time and regret it later. It can go either way. Either he recognizes it, or not. Either way, it’ll save you time and energy, especially from prolonging heartaches.