You think you’re okay until you wake up at 3 in the morning sobbing your heart out remembering everything that you once had but now so out of your reach. It’s okay. Cry it all out. Cry until you run out of tears. Cry as loud as you need to. Hit a pillow. Cry to a pillow. Burry your face in it. Scream. Stay up if you need to. Cry it all out. Don’t go back to sleep until you feel a tad bit better. Cry until your eyes hurt, until they’re red, until they’re swollen. After all, you need it. Let all your emotions out. You deserve it. Don’t keep it all in. You don’t want those to stay in your heart. The moment you close your eyes and fall deep into sleep, you will have the best sleep of your life. You will wake up, maybe not close to happy, but you’ll wake up with heavy eyes and you’ll wake up hungry. You will want to eat and please do something for yourself. Run. Jog. Walk. Ride a bike. This is just a start.
Were we ever anything more than what my imagination thought or made us to be? Was I the only one who felt the spark when we looked into each other’s eyes? Did my imagination make those up alone? Was it only me this whole time? Did our late night deep conversations not mean anything to you like I thought it did? Did my own brain create those feelings for the sake of confidence because I was lacking it. Please enlighten me. I am lost for words. Lost for anything. I believed in something completely non existent. I am ashamed of myself and how I feel. How could I ever missed it? How could I let myself drown in my own imagination? Damn. Is this for real? I feel myself slowly leaning towards a cliff. I am not sure if your answers will save me or push me. I don’t know.
One thing that is important that we fail to mention or to think about when it comes to dealing with situations is to respect ourselves enough to walk away from anything that no longer makes us happy. How? Well first you have to recognize the fact that you aren’t happy anymore. It’s important to ask yourself that question everyday when you wake up and right before you sleep. We need to value our feelings more. People tent to hold on to things or people and even relationships because they are still in love with the idea of what it used to be or how it used to feel. We want the same feelings that came with the package in the beginning and when it’s not there anymore, we sit there and wait. Some people realize it sooner than others while others waste their whole lives waiting. Don’t get left behind.
One thing I learned growing up, and that is that life is full of surprises. You wish and hope for one thing, sometimes you get it, sometimes not. When you don’t happen to get it, somehow something better always comes to place. So I learned to let things go. I learned to let things work and fall into their right places. It’s hard to be patient and it’s hard to just sit back and watch things work their own magic, but sometimes it’s the best thing to do. The earlier you realize that there are some things that you just can’t control, the better for you. Less stress and weight on your shoulders and the happier you are.
Every girl wants to hold hands with a guy who is known. A guy who is wanted by many. Because girls love the feeling of being chosen. We like to feel special. We want other girls to envy who we are with and the relationship we are in. Most of the time we care more about what we can brag about and we don’t realize how unfair we are being to ourselves. Girls think more about what a boy can offer them in public rather than what they can offer in the future and when it comes to trust and emotions. Girls care more about matching outfits rather than being on the same page when it comes to commitments and then turn around and cry about being mislead. You’ve been misleading yourself all along. Look for someone who can accept your flaws and look at them as what makes you perfect. Search for someone who encourages you to be you, rather not someone who will force you to be “normal”. Look for someone who you can be in the same boat with because that is what’s important when you’re both facing challenges. Fall inlove with someone who enjoys your madness, not an idiot who forces you to become something you’re not.
Don’t waste your time trying to prove yourself by talking especially to the ones who are doubting you the most. Let them think you can’t make it. Let them think you’ll fail. Let them think you’re wasting your time. Don’t waste your energy by worrying about what others may think. Instead, use all your energy to work on yourself. Work towards your goal and dedicate all your thoughts to your future success, not negativity. Use their doubts as your fuel. While at the same time, be patient and take your time. Inspire people. Slowly but surely surprise them and keep walking ahead. Don’t ever look back.