You think you’re okay until you wake up at 3 in the morning sobbing your heart out remembering everything that you once had but now so out of your reach. It’s okay. Cry it all out. Cry until you run out of tears. Cry as loud as you need to. Hit a pillow. Cry to a pillow. Burry your face in it. Scream. Stay up if you need to. Cry it all out. Don’t go back to sleep until you feel a tad bit better. Cry until your eyes hurt, until they’re red, until they’re swollen. After all, you need it. Let all your emotions out. You deserve it. Don’t keep it all in. You don’t want those to stay in your heart. The moment you close your eyes and fall deep into sleep, you will have the best sleep of your life. You will wake up, maybe not close to happy, but you’ll wake up with heavy eyes and you’ll wake up hungry. You will want to eat and please do something for yourself. Run. Jog. Walk. Ride a bike. This is just a start.
Do not be surprised when people promise you that they’re not going to change, but then they do. Some people change when their feelings toward something changes. There’s nothing you can do about it. Some people grow up. They learn how to work and live around some things.. There’s nothing permanent in this world. Even loving someone. How much you love a person cannot ever stay in one spot. It will either progress, or fail. You’ll either stay and nourish a relationship, or find something better. Either or, change is around. Change doesn’t have to be bad, unlike how most people make them seem to be. People somehow like to only focus on the negative side of everything. It’s time to change that. Change can be amazing. Don’t take it for granted. Change is good.
When you say someone is worth the fight, make sure you include yourself too. Make sure you tell yourself that you’re worth it. Make sure you treasure yourself just as much as you treasure others. Actually, you should treasure yourself more than anything and anyone. Because well, the more you love yourself, the more you can love others. It’s the truth. Make sure you are never unfair to yourself. Make sure you never lie to yourself. Because it becomes a habit. If no one else, show yourself how you should be treated. Fight for yourself. And what you want. Fight for what you feel. What do I mean by that? It could be as simple as letting yourself drive to Starbucks at 11:00 at night because you want a vanilla bean frappe. Spoil yourself like how you would want to spoil someone you love. Enjoy.
It’s not hard to impress a girl who adores you. Your presence alone is probably the best gift you can give her. You have to realize that she looks forward to seeing you everyday and wishes she could be with you all the time. A girl who adores you will not care about fancy things because she will care more about the effort. She will not pressure you to do anything you do not like. She will understand and appreciate. She will be selfless. She will not take you away from your friends. She will trust you. Of course though, you would have to treasure that if you want to keep it that way. Girls are like genies. You have to rub them the right way or else they’ll act or turn into something almost unbelievable. They do things because they follow what they feel. Don’t plant anything but good thoughts in their minds because their gut feelings are powerful. They almost don’t have a cap when it comes to emotions. They feel too much.
Even though people disappoint people everyday including you, you should not let that change the way you look at the world. We are people after all and some of us just don’t care enough and some are just raised untrustworthy. It’s the sad truth, but that doesn’t mean you are too. Eventually you will find someone, or more than one who you can trust. Sadly, a lot of people fall in that same whole where they just let things like this disappoint them to where they turn grey and untrusting. Yes, you should be careful who you trust, but please don’t be black and white. You just can’t. You have to sometimes judge by how you feel. Somehow people make it sound like its so wrong to use our own feelings to judge. Sometimes, it’s okay. Be a rainbow. Don’t let a negative person turn you into a dull person.
I’m not going to sit here and pretend that everyone’s the same when it comes to expressing what they feel. I’m not going to say, “hey, when you feel some type of way, you should say it. Or else you’ll feel like shit all day. ” because well, some people are simply born more reserved than others. I could tell you straight in your face to shut up because you’re offending me. I could do it without a shame. But there are others that wouldn’t be able to do that. Not because they’re P words, but because they are just different. I’m not here to fill your head with all the benefits of being prank with others, but I’m here to tell you what will happen if you’re not. In some ways, if you want to go through a day especially a tough one, you have to be able to express how you’re feeling. In your own way. If you can’t be prank face to face, no problem. Write it down. Just to make yourself feel better. Don’t let others walk all over your feelings. Because if you don’t do anything about it, you’ll never be able to breathe again.