You know that moment when you literally lose all respect you have for the person you used to adore. It’s probably the weirdest and most awkward thing you will ever feel. Like, you used to be able to sit there all day and just watch and admire the person. Hell, you could sit there all day and write good things about that person and still that whole day wouldn’t be enough. You say to yourself how awesome it is to finally meet a person who interests you. But then one day, all that pops like an air bubble. You realize how shitty the person is. You realized you were just blinded with your own interests. So you watch them as you put your own feelings aside and realize that everything they do actually bothers you. It starts to annoy you. Your respect evaporates when you see them treat other people. But at the same time they’re still nice to you. So it’s awkward. Now what? 


Not everyone is going to love you. Most people don’t even love themselves so when you come across someone who do not see you as lovable, don’t fret. Don’t stress. Don’t even overthink about it. Just go on with your life and continue to spread love. Some people just choose to live a miserable life and that’s not your fault. Keep smiling. Keep your head up. People will say some negative and discouraging comments along the way. It shouldn’t surprise you. You’re better than any of them and you know better than to entertain those petty comments. You have a wonderful life to live and a great future ahead of you. Let them say mean things and just reply with a smile. They need it. Trust me. And then you can go home and pray for them. Feel sorry for them. Because they’re missing out. 


How long until the day you get over him? The moment you decide to. That could be ten years from now when you finally get tired of hoping. Or that could be in the next ten seconds. It’s really all about you.  Nobody else. It’s you who control your own mind and what can go in it. It’s you who control and decide what you think about every second of the day. So you ask, when? The real question is when do you want to get over him? When you finally say and decide enough. When you finally tell yourself you need to get on something else or you’ll spend your life crying about someone. That will be the day of the beginning of you getting over someone. Time is not going to heal you unless you let it. That means you have to decide when. 


I’m not going to sit here and pretend that everyone’s  the same when it comes to expressing what they feel. I’m not going to say, “hey, when you feel some type of way, you should say it. Or else you’ll feel like shit all day. ” because well, some people are simply born more reserved than others. I could tell you straight in your face to shut up because you’re offending me. I could do it without a shame. But there are others that wouldn’t be able to do that. Not because they’re P words, but because they are just different. I’m not here to fill your head with all the benefits of being prank with others, but I’m here to tell you what will happen if you’re not. In some ways, if you want to go through a day especially a tough one, you have to be able to express how you’re feeling. In your own way. If you can’t be prank face to face, no problem. Write it down. Just to make yourself feel better. Don’t let others walk all over your feelings. Because if you don’t do anything about it, you’ll never be able to breathe again. 


Why are you worried about getting noticed more than you should be craving for respect? Generally speaking, I sometimes feel like the world is starting to flip upside down. You’re showing a perfectly opposite example of what you should be showing the future generation. How is it going to be? One day, respect will be something no one will even recognize. Isn’t that scary and sickening? You’re so desperate about getting attention to the point where you forget you’re even a person. A human that should be respected. Not a thing, not a piece of meat that men can hump and leave when they’re done. Not someone people will use. You’re not a walking circus. Stop acting like one. 


Give yourself a break. Give yourself compliments. Give yourself credit. Give yourself time. Give yourself attention. Give yourself love. Give yourself power. He’ll let yourself be free. Get yourself ice cream. A whole tub of it! Tell yourself what you want to hear. You don’t need to wait in anyone to do that for you. Let yourself enjoy your passion without worrying about other people liking it or not. Without worrying about people calling you a weirdo. Be a weirdo. Be an awesome weirdo. Give yourself opportunities. Give yourself everything that you want. Give yourself to you.