My life lately is like a roller coaster. But in a good way. I have a son. I gave birth almost two months ago. Yet I still catch myself staring in spaces and thinking how I still can’t believe I’m a mom. And I have this little kiddo. Who grew inside of me. It’s crazy. I missed blogging. I missed putting random thoughts on here. I miss writing just because and I miss writing for the sake of just writing. I need to do it more and again. I miss it all. Looking forward to be back on here more often.
Here are some of my little baby’s photos. He is quiet a camera lover. Like his mommy!
Isn’t he cute?!
Society will tell you that you’re too skinny. Society will tell you that you’re too fat. Society will make it seem like there is no in between. And then we try to fix it by saying “love yourself for who and what you are. ” but turn around and body shame body types that contradict ours. Why can’t we just say everybody is beautiful without bias? Or why can’t you not say it if you don’t mean it. I think that’s better. If you do not think someone is attractive, then keep it to yourself. We need to encourage peace and love. We need to encourage girls to embrace their own body type. So let them. Just because you don’t think someone is attractive because of their figure, doesn’t mean other people see them the same way. And don’t feel terrible if you don’t find someone attractive by their figure because we all are entitled to our own opinion. I’m not saying you should try to sugar coat things. I’m just saying that if you don’t have any nice things to say, then don’t say anything at all.
What’s for me will always be for me. Who’s meant to be in my life, will be there forever or close to it atleast. So I don’t stress. I don’t sweat. I don’t always try to seek for validation. Sometimes, maybe. I’m only human. We all crave it. But it is what it is. I let things go. I let things happen. I don’t try to get out of my own way to stop something or someone. I don’t waste any time or energy on things that I cannot control. I’ve been hurt from it before and now I just choose to sit back and let life take me wherever it takes me. I let life take negative people out. I learned that if you don’t stress about it, life will gladly do that for you, and when it does, just let it. Ride with it. Work on moving on instead. Save all your energy for yourself.
You know when someone lies and lies and lies, you sit there and act like you’re interested in listening but really you’re just thinking, “wow, you’re a hell of an actor. How can you lie so good. ” You sit there and think of how many times you’ve tried to lie but you just couldn’t. It takes a true talent I guess. But that feeling that you have when you’re listening to them and in your head you’re thinking, “Man, you are so full of shit. ” You don’t say anything. You just let them finish. You listen. You don’t notice but you start to squint your eyes. It’s funny. It’s a funny feeling and at the same time it’s a satisfying one too. To catch someone. To really see through their bs. You smile again. And just say “oh wow.. Cool.” Then your mind starts to wander. Do you call them out? Or do you walk away satisfied with your closure right there. Realizing that you’ve already wasted more than enough time, knowing you’re far better than that person?
It’s not hard to impress a girl who adores you. Your presence alone is probably the best gift you can give her. You have to realize that she looks forward to seeing you everyday and wishes she could be with you all the time. A girl who adores you will not care about fancy things because she will care more about the effort. She will not pressure you to do anything you do not like. She will understand and appreciate. She will be selfless. She will not take you away from your friends. She will trust you. Of course though, you would have to treasure that if you want to keep it that way. Girls are like genies. You have to rub them the right way or else they’ll act or turn into something almost unbelievable. They do things because they follow what they feel. Don’t plant anything but good thoughts in their minds because their gut feelings are powerful. They almost don’t have a cap when it comes to emotions. They feel too much.
The person you will marry is currently walking the earth, living their own life, creating memories, good and bad that you will hear about years from now. So get out there and do the same. Enjoy your life and enjoy yourself. Actually, stop looking for him or her. You will find each other when the time is right, at the right place. Meanwhile, you go experience as much as you can. Travel around and try new things. Enjoy your friends’ company and meet people. Nobody said you can’t have fun single. Enjoy it while you can. The breeze will seem different when you meet him. So enjoy the now and what’s in front of you. Go on a date with yourself. Enjoy your family. Help the helpless and spread love. Be kind. Document everything if you can so that one day, you can share it with him or her, and maybe decide to do it together. Have fun and don’t rush.