YES GRANDMA, I’M STILL SINGLE. NOW WHERE’S THE WINE ?

Everytime I visit my grandmother, there is one thing she never fails to do. No, I’m not talking about her giving me bear hugs and telling me she missed me or asking me if I already ate. Which would be really nice. She never fails to ask me when I am going to get married. No granny. I am not getting married, I don’t even have a boyfriend. Why do old people feel the need to ask that question? It’s kind of personal you know? I don’t know about your granny, but mine believes that a woman should be married before turning 25. And if you don’t, you’ll be a left over and no one will ever want you and you will grow old alone. Mind you, she told me this when I was only eight. It did not impact me much but I have to admit, it’s definitely something that stayed somewhere in the back of my head. I kind of grew up anxious about when I am going to get married and if I ever. Kinda sad right? But then I got over it. I’m happy with myself and if no one sees how special I am like the way I see myself, then screw everyone. That just means I can adopt more shelter dogs. I love you granny! 

I WANT TO PLAY PRETEND


I want to walk in someone else’s shoes and be able to understand why they do the things that they do. I wonder a lot about what other people are thinking. Although I have no intention to care, I simply want to see how it is to be someone else and to see the world from another light. So I listen to different songs and imagine myself as someone else and try to feel the same emotions that the song describes. Or I sit in public and observe others and try to picture myself if I was them. Like the homeless man that I see everyday. For some reason, he is always walking and looks like he has to be somewhere. I want to know where he goes and I want to know where he sleeps. I also want to know how he is not tired from all the walking, or maybe he is. Everytime I see him, he carries a huge garbage bag and a gallon of water. I want to be him for a day and know how it is to walk all day. And then I want to write it all down. I believe that the way we see certain things is very far from how others see things even when they say they know exactly what we are saying or seeing. It is impossible. If you really think about it, you will see. Nobody is like me or you, so how can someone else see things the way You or I do? I want to play pretend. So then maybe I will understand why people do the things that they do. Or maybe to prove myself right and maybe wrong.