You’re making things a part of your life by simply thinking of them. Whether if it is a person, a thing or a feeling, it doesn’t matter. Or if it’s something you hate, like, or love. Generally speaking they’re all the same. When you say you hate something, a thought for example, and you keep drilling it in your head, well tada! You end up hating it more. Because you’re putting some kind of an effort to somehow let it stay in your mind. This is why I don’t believe when someone keeps saying they don’t care about something or someone because they keep talking about it. Because if you didn’t care, why bother mention it? See the point?
It may have been in pieces, but I gave you the best of me. I tried to be what you wanted and who you needed. I was not perfect, I knew that. But my love was. I cared for you and I would have done anything for you. I was trying to fix myself when you came along. Your presence lit a little fire inside of me and made me want to hurry up my healing process. You were kind to me and told me you love and appreciated flaws. You said you believed flaws are there for a reason. You said they were made for the right person to appreciate. I thought, great. So I showed you mine and tore down my walls myself. I proudly presented myself to you almost like a gift or when princesses present themselves infront of a prince hoping you would choose me. But then you wouldn’t even dare to take a step forward. Instead, you took a step back. Now I’m sitting here. Like a kid who just wanted to throw a party but then nobody shows up. Lost and confused.
He cheated on you. You’re mad. But why are you more mad at the other person? She did not cheat on you, your man did. She was not the one who was supposedly committed to you, he was. The fact that you’re even defending him from her is something I cannot stomach. Is it a form of defense? Is it something you do to try to deal with the betrayal? Because if so, wake up. You can’t always let someone step on you like that. Bottom line is that you got cheated on. It doesn’t matter what, how, where and with who. You got cheated on. That should be more than enough to make you realize you deserve better. Pretending is only going to make you look stupid. Obviously, you have wasted too much time and effort on the wrong person.
Great things are going to happen. Keep fighting and keep your head up. People are going to stand in your way. There are going to be a lot of temptations in the way that will make you think twice about your goals. You won’t understand your emotions and the weather will confuse you. People will be mean. People will tempt you to settle. People will try to convince you to stay. You will witness some things that will discourage you. There are going to be some new ideas made to divert your attention from what you’re set to do and what you promised yourself to do. You are going to be tired, exhausted and you’re going to doubt what you’re capable of. You’re going to wonder if you’re really meant to acheive your goal. But keep fighting and don’t worry. as long as you’re giving your best, it will all work out and you wil get there.
I am not going to lie, when someone asks me a question that puts me under a spotlight, depending on what it is, sometimes I catch myself lying. We’ll sort of. You know when you are sure of an answer but then you don’t want to hurt them. I can write about encouraging people to be honest about their opinion, because I know how hard it is to tell the truth especially when there are feelings involved. We tend to try to protect them from being hurt by lying. I am not sure why we do it and sometimes I question if it’s wrong to do it. that’s why I have so much respect to those who always tell me the truth no matter how hard it is.
Every girl wants to hold hands with a guy who is known. A guy who is wanted by many. Because girls love the feeling of being chosen. We like to feel special. We want other girls to envy who we are with and the relationship we are in. Most of the time we care more about what we can brag about and we don’t realize how unfair we are being to ourselves. Girls think more about what a boy can offer them in public rather than what they can offer in the future and when it comes to trust and emotions. Girls care more about matching outfits rather than being on the same page when it comes to commitments and then turn around and cry about being mislead. You’ve been misleading yourself all along. Look for someone who can accept your flaws and look at them as what makes you perfect. Search for someone who encourages you to be you, rather not someone who will force you to be “normal”. Look for someone who you can be in the same boat with because that is what’s important when you’re both facing challenges. Fall inlove with someone who enjoys your madness, not an idiot who forces you to become something you’re not.