It’s time to face the fact that you are losing sleep over someone who sleeps peacefully while hurting you. It’s time to wake up and tell yourself that you deserve better. Even if it means that you’d have to fake it until you make it. Even if it means pretending. You have mourned long enough that you’re depriving yourself of a happiness that you could be feeling and enjoying right now. It’s time to look at yourself in the mirror and ask yourself if this is what you’re really here for. Ask yourself if you deserve all this. It’s time to snap out of it. It’s time to change how you view things. It’s time to be on your own side rather than to keep doubting and questioning yourself why things happened the way they did, or what you could have done better. You deserve the best. 


I want to walk in someone else’s shoes and be able to understand why they do the things that they do. I wonder a lot about what other people are thinking. Although I have no intention to care, I simply want to see how it is to be someone else and to see the world from another light. So I listen to different songs and imagine myself as someone else and try to feel the same emotions that the song describes. Or I sit in public and observe others and try to picture myself if I was them. Like the homeless man that I see everyday. For some reason, he is always walking and looks like he has to be somewhere. I want to know where he goes and I want to know where he sleeps. I also want to know how he is not tired from all the walking, or maybe he is. Everytime I see him, he carries a huge garbage bag and a gallon of water. I want to be him for a day and know how it is to walk all day. And then I want to write it all down. I believe that the way we see certain things is very far from how others see things even when they say they know exactly what we are saying or seeing. It is impossible. If you really think about it, you will see. Nobody is like me or you, so how can someone else see things the way You or I do? I want to play pretend. So then maybe I will understand why people do the things that they do. Or maybe to prove myself right and maybe wrong.