ONE MONTH OLD

Hello everyone. Oh how I have missed blog bombing your feed. Here’s why I have been M.I.A  on and off; 


Officially a month old last September 6th you guise! Oh how time flies. I remember complaining about how heavy my body felt just a month and a half ago. 

 

I have been obsessed with taking pictures of my little one. It’s 6 am and I’m up. Wondering why I haven’t thought of sharing all of it. 

Well well. Here I am. 

I guess this is to let you all know that I’ll be blog bombing again soon! I missed you all! 

IT’S OKAY TO BE NEGATIVE

Hey, you don’t have to be always positive you know. As someone who loves to express how I feel and what I think here on my blog. I can’t help but feel the pressure to be always positive about things around me. I was worse a month ago I can tell you that. But I got over it. Somehow. I still feel pressure sometimes because well, I have the urge to push people up. Just go. Go up and not look back. You know what I mean? But I always remind myself that I’m only human. Surprise! I think of negative stuff too. I judge. I get sad. I feel emotional. Like you. I always try to remind myself that this blog is original and raw. I’m not going to pretend to be someone who only think of happy thoughts and you shouldn’t be too. I mean, how I wish I am that kind of person. Even though I don’t think there’s anyone here who do not get sad. Because we all do. So, yeah. Don’t be ashamed about being negative. After all, negative thoughts are what makes positive thoughts more special. Embrace them. Nag all you want. Because I will. 

I AM STILL PREGNANT! 

Hello my loves. See, I was going to write something as always. I wanted to write something simple like always. A paragraph as usual, but even that I can’t do right now. I am exhausted. By the way, I’m still pregnant. Just to let you guys know. This is me talking, the author of this blog. Hello! I will be 40 weeks this Wednesday. And let me tell you, I am soooo done. I’m so ready. I cannot wait.  I am anxious to meet the little guy. I have mixed emotions about everything. Wait, how did I even get there. I just wanted to say hi. And let you guise know I’m still here breathing. I drove pretty much all day today you know. And walked too. Anyway, if you have any recommendations as to making this journey a little bit easier and comfortable, please step forward. I’d really appreciate it. And I’m goig to sleep you guise. Goodnight!

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-Katreena

ONE OF THE BEST FEELINGS IN THE WORLD

One of the best feelings in the world is watching things finally fall into place after watching them fall apart for so long. When you finally can sit back and not hold your breath anymore. When at first it seems unbelievable but then it happens right infront of you and you realize that you have been waiting for this moment to come for such a long time. Tears may become visible. When you stand there and smile at yourself and tell yourself everything was worth it. That your patience was worth it. So savor every moment because you deserve it. You have come so far and this moment is all yours. You wouldn’t be standing here if it wasn’t because of you, yourself. Nobody else but you. 

THINGS YOU DO NOT HAVE TO DO

You don’t need to pretend you’re okay. You can cry, you can look sad if you feel sad. You can admit that there’s something wrong. You don’t have to act like you’re not hurt when you are. You can talk about the things that makes or made you feel sad. You can be frustrated. You can stay home. You don’t have to go out and pretend you’re having a great time when you’re dying inside. You can write your feelings down and burn them. You do not have to pretend you are invincible. You do not have to prove anything to anyone but yourself. You can let your defenses down for yourself and only for yourself. You don’t have to deprive yourself of your own feelings. 

WHEN YOU LOVE YOURSELF FIRST

When you love yourself first, you won’t let anyone treat you anywhere far from good. Because when you love yourself, you have standards and you know how you want to be treated. When you love yourself first, you know what you deserve and you know not to be a doormat. You know the difference between compromising because you fancy, or love somebody and letting someone drag you around and make you look like a hungry drooling puppy. When you love yourself first, you also know your worth and know that you are strong enough to hold a door open to anyone whose willing to walk out of your life. You know not to beg for love and especially know not to let anyone tell you you’re not worth it.