Often times many people take their homes for granted. Today I woke up to the smell breakfast. I woke up to the smell of coffee and bacon, and then pancakes. I woke up to my mother telling us that breakfast is almost ready. I woke up in warm sheets of blankets. I smiled. And then I thought of the ones who take these things for granted. I thought of the ones who did not wake up to the same scenery that I woke up to this morning. I sympathize them. In hopes that they would realize the value of having a home. And go home. Don’t take it for granted. Or stop taking it for granted. Because not everybody gets to have something to call a home. Not a lot of people feel warm waking up. Not a lot of people gets to eat breakfast. 


I am not going to lie, when someone asks me a question that puts me under a spotlight, depending on what it is, sometimes I catch myself lying. We’ll sort of. You know when you are sure of an answer but then you don’t want to hurt them. I can write about encouraging people to be honest about their opinion, because I know how hard it is to tell the truth especially when there are feelings involved. We tend to try to protect them from being hurt by lying. I am not sure why we do it and sometimes I question if it’s wrong to do it. that’s why I have so much respect to those who always tell me the truth no matter how hard it is. 


So you got hurt and you want revenge. Of course. Don’t we all? Feeling bitter I guess is part of a healing process for most of us. But being bitter just makes you look angry and feel more angry. Some people actually prefer to feel that feeling over mourning because they believe that it makes them look stronger and make them feel stronger. But in fact, it only makes you look broken. It makes you look and sound miserable. Feeling bitter is fine but I don’t agree when people stay in that phase for a long time because I believe that they forget how to be happy. When you walk into that door, it’s hard to walk out of it. A lot of people choose that because it’s easier than accepting and facing the sad truth that they got hurt. Being bitter is just delaying your process of healing. The best revenge is to accept and move on. Get over it and continue to succeed. Never give someone the satisfaction of watching you suffer. 


Today you cry, you sweat and you starve. You work hard and you crawl. Today you realize how hard it is to keep going. You doubt and you question. You overthink and you are irritated. Today you feel lost and you feel stuck. Today you do not know what to do. You want to hurry. Today you want to run, as fast as you can just to get out of wherever you are, but you have no idea in which direction to start running to. Today you want to scream because you are exhausted. Today, you want to give up. But no matter how fucked up everything may seem to be today, stay for another tomorrow. Because tomorrow is worth it. 


You’re cute, but I don’t know if you’re here to waste my time or to sweep me off my feet. I’m tired of people like you, but somehow I get sucked in so easy. Next thing I know I am thinking about you every night while I stare at my ceiling when my mind won’t let me sleep. I don’t know if you’re here to have fun, or here to look for a future that we can walk in together. I’m ready, but most people aren’t. Not the ones my age at least. I seem to have a mature mind compared to other people my age, but my emotions are all over the place. I know what I want, but I cannot recognize it when it’s right in front of me. It’s like I look at you, I know I want a future with you but then my gut is telling me not to waste time because you’re probably like the rest of them. Because I got hurt so many times before, I don’t even know how to trust my own gut. Sometimes I feel like even my own head and heart are up to only hurting me. You have a pretty face, but your intentions are ugly. You just want to have fun. I don’t. I want to be happy. 


You’re not ugly, the society just has a picture perfect image that everybody tries to acheive. A lot of people especially girls try to look like someone or something that they are not. They take their own beauty for granted. Don’t be a follower and don’t think that one beauty is above another. If you think so, I’m telling you that it’s not the case. Anywhere you go has their own standard ideal beauty. So feel better. Stop letting Facebook or Instagram tell you how you should look like or what numbers should appear on the scale when you step on it. Stop letting people enslave how you look. Love your face. Love your beauty. Love your body because if you don’t, nobody else will.