One day, I hope you look back at what we had, and regret every single thing you did to let it end. When you chose to look at the “neighbor’s grass”, and always said it was greener. Instead of taking care of what you have, you drooled over what you did not. I hope you regret choosing to be around people who you think is cool, rather than staying with the one who would wait for you when you come home, always leaving the lights on for you. You had it all, you just did not realize it. I hope you regret putting me right at the bottom of your every list. I hope you realize that you lost someone who you could come home to after an exhausting day. I hope you regret leaving me out in the open knowing I trusted you with my emotions and my heart. I hope one you regret everything. And when you realize that you have made a mistake, it will be too late.
When you say someone is worth the fight, make sure you include yourself too. Make sure you tell yourself that you’re worth it. Make sure you treasure yourself just as much as you treasure others. Actually, you should treasure yourself more than anything and anyone. Because well, the more you love yourself, the more you can love others. It’s the truth. Make sure you are never unfair to yourself. Make sure you never lie to yourself. Because it becomes a habit. If no one else, show yourself how you should be treated. Fight for yourself. And what you want. Fight for what you feel. What do I mean by that? It could be as simple as letting yourself drive to Starbucks at 11:00 at night because you want a vanilla bean frappe. Spoil yourself like how you would want to spoil someone you love. Enjoy.
You know when someone lies and lies and lies, you sit there and act like you’re interested in listening but really you’re just thinking, “wow, you’re a hell of an actor. How can you lie so good. ” You sit there and think of how many times you’ve tried to lie but you just couldn’t. It takes a true talent I guess. But that feeling that you have when you’re listening to them and in your head you’re thinking, “Man, you are so full of shit. ” You don’t say anything. You just let them finish. You listen. You don’t notice but you start to squint your eyes. It’s funny. It’s a funny feeling and at the same time it’s a satisfying one too. To catch someone. To really see through their bs. You smile again. And just say “oh wow.. Cool.” Then your mind starts to wander. Do you call them out? Or do you walk away satisfied with your closure right there. Realizing that you’ve already wasted more than enough time, knowing you’re far better than that person?
Hey, you don’t have to be always positive you know. As someone who loves to express how I feel and what I think here on my blog. I can’t help but feel the pressure to be always positive about things around me. I was worse a month ago I can tell you that. But I got over it. Somehow. I still feel pressure sometimes because well, I have the urge to push people up. Just go. Go up and not look back. You know what I mean? But I always remind myself that I’m only human. Surprise! I think of negative stuff too. I judge. I get sad. I feel emotional. Like you. I always try to remind myself that this blog is original and raw. I’m not going to pretend to be someone who only think of happy thoughts and you shouldn’t be too. I mean, how I wish I am that kind of person. Even though I don’t think there’s anyone here who do not get sad. Because we all do. So, yeah. Don’t be ashamed about being negative. After all, negative thoughts are what makes positive thoughts more special. Embrace them. Nag all you want. Because I will.
Nowadays it’s hard to find someone whose willing to stick it out with you through hard times. A lot of people want to be in a relationship only for the good times and to have fun, and when it gets down to it and when life throws you both lemons, some people are so quick to take a step back saying they weren’t ready or that they want to take a break. Before you walk into something like a relationship, make sure you know that relationships aren’t always rainbows and butterflies. And if you are the type of person who are not ready for anything serious and simply just want companionship, then be honest about it. You’d be surprise how many people are looking for just that. There’s no reason to be ashamed about it. In fact, you’re doing someone a favor by being honest.
How long until the day you get over him? The moment you decide to. That could be ten years from now when you finally get tired of hoping. Or that could be in the next ten seconds. It’s really all about you. Nobody else. It’s you who control your own mind and what can go in it. It’s you who control and decide what you think about every second of the day. So you ask, when? The real question is when do you want to get over him? When you finally say and decide enough. When you finally tell yourself you need to get on something else or you’ll spend your life crying about someone. That will be the day of the beginning of you getting over someone. Time is not going to heal you unless you let it. That means you have to decide when.