Just because you do not understand something, doesn’t make it stupid. People like you make me sick. But then again, I can’t blame you. You were not educated well. But let me just tell you something, and keep this in mind. Maybe one day you’ll remember this moment. Instead of judging something you do not understand, learn why. Study it. Try to understand it. Educate yourself why people do the things that they do. You do not live in a little bubble. You live in a world full of people with different cultures and practices. People with different point of views and opinion about things. While I preach about being open minded, you should try to get out of the close mindedness. Ignorance is not bliss. You just look really dumb.
What’s for me will always be for me. Who’s meant to be in my life, will be there forever or close to it atleast. So I don’t stress. I don’t sweat. I don’t always try to seek for validation. Sometimes, maybe. I’m only human. We all crave it. But it is what it is. I let things go. I let things happen. I don’t try to get out of my own way to stop something or someone. I don’t waste any time or energy on things that I cannot control. I’ve been hurt from it before and now I just choose to sit back and let life take me wherever it takes me. I let life take negative people out. I learned that if you don’t stress about it, life will gladly do that for you, and when it does, just let it. Ride with it. Work on moving on instead. Save all your energy for yourself.
The word sorry does nothing but piss me off. Congratulations, you have officially made me hate that word. You did something wrong. And you say sorry. No. Don’t give me that bull. Sorry so the ball is in my court? Sorry to make me think you really are, when we all know you have done this before. Sorry so that you can get another pass to do it again? How about shove the sorry up your behind. How about do something about it. How about don’t tell me sorry and just prove that you really are. Because I’m getting really tired of it. I’m tired to the point where I don’t even want to see your face anymore. Because everytime I do, it’s like the word “sorry” is written all over your face. I just want to smack it. I’m starting to hate you as much as I hate that word. Prove me wrong, or stay away from me.
One day, I hope you look back at what we had, and regret every single thing you did to let it end. When you chose to look at the “neighbor’s grass”, and always said it was greener. Instead of taking care of what you have, you drooled over what you did not. I hope you regret choosing to be around people who you think is cool, rather than staying with the one who would wait for you when you come home, always leaving the lights on for you. You had it all, you just did not realize it. I hope you regret putting me right at the bottom of your every list. I hope you realize that you lost someone who you could come home to after an exhausting day. I hope you regret leaving me out in the open knowing I trusted you with my emotions and my heart. I hope one you regret everything. And when you realize that you have made a mistake, it will be too late.
Do not be surprised when people promise you that they’re not going to change, but then they do. Some people change when their feelings toward something changes. There’s nothing you can do about it. Some people grow up. They learn how to work and live around some things.. There’s nothing permanent in this world. Even loving someone. How much you love a person cannot ever stay in one spot. It will either progress, or fail. You’ll either stay and nourish a relationship, or find something better. Either or, change is around. Change doesn’t have to be bad, unlike how most people make them seem to be. People somehow like to only focus on the negative side of everything. It’s time to change that. Change can be amazing. Don’t take it for granted. Change is good.
When you say someone is worth the fight, make sure you include yourself too. Make sure you tell yourself that you’re worth it. Make sure you treasure yourself just as much as you treasure others. Actually, you should treasure yourself more than anything and anyone. Because well, the more you love yourself, the more you can love others. It’s the truth. Make sure you are never unfair to yourself. Make sure you never lie to yourself. Because it becomes a habit. If no one else, show yourself how you should be treated. Fight for yourself. And what you want. Fight for what you feel. What do I mean by that? It could be as simple as letting yourself drive to Starbucks at 11:00 at night because you want a vanilla bean frappe. Spoil yourself like how you would want to spoil someone you love. Enjoy.