Often times many people take their homes for granted. Today I woke up to the smell breakfast. I woke up to the smell of coffee and bacon, and then pancakes. I woke up to my mother telling us that breakfast is almost ready. I woke up in warm sheets of blankets. I smiled. And then I thought of the ones who take these things for granted. I thought of the ones who did not wake up to the same scenery that I woke up to this morning. I sympathize them. In hopes that they would realize the value of having a home. And go home. Don’t take it for granted. Or stop taking it for granted. Because not everybody gets to have something to call a home. Not a lot of people feel warm waking up. Not a lot of people gets to eat breakfast.
Society will tell you that you’re too skinny. Society will tell you that you’re too fat. Society will make it seem like there is no in between. And then we try to fix it by saying “love yourself for who and what you are. ” but turn around and body shame body types that contradict ours. Why can’t we just say everybody is beautiful without bias? Or why can’t you not say it if you don’t mean it. I think that’s better. If you do not think someone is attractive, then keep it to yourself. We need to encourage peace and love. We need to encourage girls to embrace their own body type. So let them. Just because you don’t think someone is attractive because of their figure, doesn’t mean other people see them the same way. And don’t feel terrible if you don’t find someone attractive by their figure because we all are entitled to our own opinion. I’m not saying you should try to sugar coat things. I’m just saying that if you don’t have any nice things to say, then don’t say anything at all.
You think you’re okay until you wake up at 3 in the morning sobbing your heart out remembering everything that you once had but now so out of your reach. It’s okay. Cry it all out. Cry until you run out of tears. Cry as loud as you need to. Hit a pillow. Cry to a pillow. Burry your face in it. Scream. Stay up if you need to. Cry it all out. Don’t go back to sleep until you feel a tad bit better. Cry until your eyes hurt, until they’re red, until they’re swollen. After all, you need it. Let all your emotions out. You deserve it. Don’t keep it all in. You don’t want those to stay in your heart. The moment you close your eyes and fall deep into sleep, you will have the best sleep of your life. You will wake up, maybe not close to happy, but you’ll wake up with heavy eyes and you’ll wake up hungry. You will want to eat and please do something for yourself. Run. Jog. Walk. Ride a bike. This is just a start.
Do not be surprised when people promise you that they’re not going to change, but then they do. Some people change when their feelings toward something changes. There’s nothing you can do about it. Some people grow up. They learn how to work and live around some things.. There’s nothing permanent in this world. Even loving someone. How much you love a person cannot ever stay in one spot. It will either progress, or fail. You’ll either stay and nourish a relationship, or find something better. Either or, change is around. Change doesn’t have to be bad, unlike how most people make them seem to be. People somehow like to only focus on the negative side of everything. It’s time to change that. Change can be amazing. Don’t take it for granted. Change is good.
When you say someone is worth the fight, make sure you include yourself too. Make sure you tell yourself that you’re worth it. Make sure you treasure yourself just as much as you treasure others. Actually, you should treasure yourself more than anything and anyone. Because well, the more you love yourself, the more you can love others. It’s the truth. Make sure you are never unfair to yourself. Make sure you never lie to yourself. Because it becomes a habit. If no one else, show yourself how you should be treated. Fight for yourself. And what you want. Fight for what you feel. What do I mean by that? It could be as simple as letting yourself drive to Starbucks at 11:00 at night because you want a vanilla bean frappe. Spoil yourself like how you would want to spoil someone you love. Enjoy.
You know when someone lies and lies and lies, you sit there and act like you’re interested in listening but really you’re just thinking, “wow, you’re a hell of an actor. How can you lie so good. ” You sit there and think of how many times you’ve tried to lie but you just couldn’t. It takes a true talent I guess. But that feeling that you have when you’re listening to them and in your head you’re thinking, “Man, you are so full of shit. ” You don’t say anything. You just let them finish. You listen. You don’t notice but you start to squint your eyes. It’s funny. It’s a funny feeling and at the same time it’s a satisfying one too. To catch someone. To really see through their bs. You smile again. And just say “oh wow.. Cool.” Then your mind starts to wander. Do you call them out? Or do you walk away satisfied with your closure right there. Realizing that you’ve already wasted more than enough time, knowing you’re far better than that person?