Wake up. I mean get out of bed. Wash your face and eat something without forcing it out. Put in your running shoes maybe. Go for a run. You don’t have to have a destination.  Stop thinking about him. Stop thinking about what could’ve been. I hate to be that person but, move on. Start the process at least. Look at yourself. You look hideous. Stop playing victim. Take charge. Take care of yourself. It’s all you now.