I hear you comparing yourself with others. In fact, I noticed you compare yourself more than appreciating your own progress. Admiring is not a problem. I believe it’s really good. You know, giving yourself that idea or room to improve. What’s not okay though, is to compare yourself constantly to the point where you overlook yourself. Comparing yourself to others to the point where you admire them so much that you obsessed over what you do not have is not healthy. Not even close to good. Know that you were born unique and meant to be different. Embrace it. You were born to be you.