Dont put others first when in the end, you always turn around and say you’re hurt for putting yourself last. What’s the point of being selfless when at the end you nag about how sorry you feel for yourself? Being selfless means doing things without expecting anything in return and nobody told you to be selfless in the first place. You somewhat did that to yourself. Nobody told you to put others before yourself. You’ve decided to be that so don’t blame others for how you feel. So you say that you are so done putting others first. So be it. Talking about it isn’t going to change the fact that you still feel like crap, does it? Be selfish once in a while. Make yourself happy first.